"I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you"
My best friend in MMU won't contact me anymore. I scold her for doing something really terrible and personal to me. And i call her right after that and cried while saying sorry like 20 times. I can't even say sorry cause my tears and are blocking my throat to say anything to come out. She block me in her YM and deleted me. She never replied my SMS at all. She never call me at all. She never look at me. Exam hall 3rd sem, she sat next to me. I can't even talk to her. She wont talk to me. I still have her passport picture in my wallet... to keep her close to my heart even though she ripped me apart and throw me in
it sounds irony, but this is the type of teddy that she gave to me on my birthday. I AM GONNA CRY NOW!
"Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words"
There are many mistakes in alpha year that i thought that i shouldn't have done. One, is the thing on top of this. An example of the things that i shouldn't have done is that, i keep my feelings inside for a long time and that makes me bad inside. But i keep my smile outside to keep other people happy. This is very bad for your health. From time to time, i would shout at someone when he/she only did a minor bad thing. I'm sorry. I would also keep my distance on my friends when i should have fun with them. I would stay quiet and watch over everything, observing is not fun. Trust me. Go with your friends.
"Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end"
As i said before, my thought are mostly unspoken. People need to get close to me to know the truth, if i'm in a good mood, i'll tell you but with a promise that it won't be heard by other people. I trust you to flow inside my mind, so, please keep the promise.
"I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you"
There are friends like "Apek" i really miss him. He has so many problems and so he can't continue his study like normal. It is really a sad thing to begin with. I am so close to him, yet now he works so far to get the money for the degree. He's like my brother, he teach me everything about survival skills, give me advice, everything. Now, i only see him once in a while. Once a month, or maybe once per two month. That is really sad but, nothing could change family matters i guess?
Lyrics taken by sum 41 - with me
I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you
Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words
I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go
Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you
All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end
I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)
I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go
