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Things in Alpha year

2008-07-01T04:11:00.000-07:00

I'm going to base this post on the lyric below base on my experience, every time i hear this, i just want to shed to tears

"I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you"
My best friend in MMU won't contact me anymore. I scold her for doing something really terrible and personal to me. And i call her right after that and cried while saying sorry like 20 times. I can't even say sorry cause my tears and are blocking my throat to say anything to come out. She block me in her YM and deleted me. She never replied my SMS at all. She never call me at all. She never look at me. Exam hall 3rd sem, she sat next to me. I can't even talk to her. She wont talk to me. I still have her passport picture in my wallet... to keep her close to my heart even though she ripped me apart and throw me in

it sounds irony, but this is the type of teddy that she gave to me on my birthday. I AM GONNA CRY NOW!

"Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words"
There are many mistakes in alpha year that i thought that i shouldn't have done. One, is the thing on top of this. An example of the things that i shouldn't have done is that, i keep my feelings inside for a long time and that makes me bad inside. But i keep my smile outside to keep other people happy. This is very bad for your health. From time to time, i would shout at someone when he/she only did a minor bad thing. I'm sorry. I would also keep my distance on my friends when i should have fun with them. I would stay quiet and watch over everything, observing is not fun. Trust me. Go with your friends.

"Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end"
As i said before, my thought are mostly unspoken. People need to get close to me to know the truth, if i'm in a good mood, i'll tell you but with a promise that it won't be heard by other people. I trust you to flow inside my mind, so, please keep the promise.

"I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you"
There are friends like "Apek" i really miss him. He has so many problems and so he can't continue his study like normal. It is really a sad thing to begin with. I am so close to him, yet now he works so far to get the money for the degree. He's like my brother, he teach me everything about survival skills, give me advice, everything. Now, i only see him once in a while. Once a month, or maybe once per two month. That is really sad but, nothing could change family matters i guess?

Lyrics taken by sum 41 - with me

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Re: Canon

2008-06-29T18:11:00.001-07:00

Just to make it clear, i have nothing against canon. But some said i'm being immature. Actually why should canon people compare between only 2 brands (nikon and canon) and comparing the camera's that are not in the league.

The canon people bragging about how sucky the "other" brand are and keeps on punching the nikon till it's corner. Hei, i still love canon just that i hate how they compare.

If you compare a 24,000 DELL PC and a 14,000 HP PC. Which would out performs the other one? THINK about this canon! Please don't cheat the students by showing great pictures while giving expensive cameras. My friend just bought a D60 when he depositted RM100 to Canon for his 450D , he said that D60 specs looks much better with it's cheaper pricing.

Sorry for the miss conception. Ah, what does this blog turns into? Nevermind, no hate post after this xD

Canon Sux!

2008-06-29T10:03:00.000-07:00

Sorry for canon users, but monday was really sucky week 2 photography, canon really pisses me off by comparing stuff with nikon.

Of course canon is better when you compare camera like this :-

Canon 450D RM2,750.00
Nikon D60 RM2,295.00

Canon 5D RM6,850.00
Nikon D300 RM5,495.00

Canon 1Ds RM24,950.00
Nikon D3 RM14,850.00

Do you think cheaper camera can beat expensive camera, canon sucks

I wonder how fragile is canon for being so scared to compare Canon 1D (13,800) with Nikon D3 (14,800). Stupid Canon!

Wicked Mind

2008-06-28T20:28:00.000-07:00

Restarting my blog, restarting my life.

Alas , beta year eh? The year when everything starts in your studies. The degree, keep your friends close, keeps your enemy closer eh? Your friends are your competitor and your competitor is your enemy. So, to be honest, how can you tell apart from friends and enemy?

I don't want to have enemy's but, your friends might be your enemy from time to time. What am i saying? Alo kengkawan~, jangan anggap saya sebagai enemy kamu ya?

Okey.... after all of that has slip away.... my journey starts here

It's been a sad, happy and most emotion week ever. Needed to go sisha 3 times in 1 week to make everything calm. Everyone was pushing me for something, and i was trapped in a corner that i can't get out. Pressure keeps pushing down on me which reminds me of this song :-

When i'm in pressure i always hear this song to keep me NOT under pressure. As i was saying, some people who are close to me has been thrown at them my rage from my pressure. I'm sorry guys but i have a limit on everything. I can be very friendly and angry at the same time.

Just to tell you the truth, sometimes people doesn't know what's behind my smile, a smile to someone might be me cursing to the person everytime i look at them, this is what they called "talam dua muka" if i'm not mistaken. Yea i know it's bad, but i can't be looking mad 24/7 am i?

Sometimes people keeps bothering me when i don't want to.

Hahahaha, this is deep inside my heart, what i want to say right now. Actually i don't have anything to say, that's why i say this out loud. I hope you guys know which one is my smile and which one is my fake smile. Normally, i'm behind my smile so don't worry. There are only 1/100 person in MMU that are on my hated list :D ahahahahahaha

Daaaaaaaaaa~~~